Affaire de coeur

i want to live on my own a few years after i officially start working. :\ i haven’t thought of this for quite sometime. i suddenly remembered. i even had a plan for it. hahaa, thought was triggered my mum. her voice harsh on the ears at night. so peaceful, the night is.

mm, i think i’ll live with someone. it’s a bit scary living alone. hahaa.

i love claymore! teresa and clare! so very nice to watch! wonder when i be watching movie. so many nice blockbusters to watch!

i don’t know what to say when people are obviously not feeling okay but i really want to doing something to make them feel better. and all there is, is silence.

this type of silence makes me feel uneasy, worried and unhappy. i am a sensitive person. but in the end, it all depends on the will to act on them or not. most of the time, i tend to act on it. because, i love to see people smile and really mean it.

occasionally, it’s a good thing not to know. knowing makes you feel and think more. but not knowing makes you feel uneasy. it’s hard to choose, since knowing doesn’t mean i’ll be of any help.

but people choose these for you. and all that’s left, is to respect it.

i want to be the shoulder you can lean and cry on when you’re sad, the person you can laugh and play with when you’re ecstatic. and the only thing you need is my presence and attention.

i’m clad in tshirt and pants and i’m going to school. i even considered not putting my contacts on and tie my hair up while wearing my specs. i’ll look like such a good girl. how amazing. too bad i’m just not THAT laid back. such a hot morning. i’m sweating.. and i’m only bringing my cell, my pen and my wallet. that’s it! amazing. o_o

and i’m not going anywhere today. i’m staying at home to stare at the computer. and i’m taking the damn cab there and back. i know i’m wasting tons of money. but wtf.. i don’t even feel like going out. it’s just for the MCQ paper. and i’m most likely to pass with flying colours. or something.

as for the POA paper. i have to take it. so lame. =.= i still don’t see the pointttt. or will someone give me crash course on the not-so-basics of POA. zz. like ledger balance and trial sheet and all that. maybe i’ll feel more motivated to go.

and i’ll come back and sleeeeeep. and look forward to non-existent things that keep appearing in my dream – so weird. and then i’ll be happy cos it’s supposedly non-existent. LOL. lalala. and then i’ll wake up and live a secluded life. no, just for a day or two i guess. and then arrange for more things to happen. and watch movies and what not.

i’m so yawning. :\ my last paper. supposedly, if not for the poa paper. -_- i’m tired.