Affaire de coeur

the right side of my chest kind of hurts, inside. what hurts is not external pain, it’s the pain inside. and i’m saying i’m not feeling well. and it’s not mental. i hope it goes off soon.

if you told me that you did indeed like some other girl, it would mean that you’ve more or less been lying to me. it doesn’t matter that you’ve been dating a guy. and now i’m just waiting for an answer. and even if this is the answer i’m wanting, i rather you told me.

why i keep asking, is to give myself a reason to let go. to tell myself, see? i was right all along. now you can finally let go.

and i would tell you, okay. good luck. that’s it.

and i’m listening to french music.