Affaire de coeur

i remember the only guy i liked enough to hold him tight, and remembered letting him go one week after. yeah, talk about being lesbian. hah. because i still yearn for a woman to hold me tight and pamper me more than the need for a guy. but maybe, if i meet the right guy one day.. he’d be the one doing the job instead. in the present though, no guy will enjoy the luxuries of being my man. because i am not interested, at all.

usually i have people point out what the bigger picture is. after i tell them what i am feeling. and i feel slightly clearer about things and i know the courses to take to deal with it. because sometimes, all the thoughts cloud my mind and i’m lost. it certainly helps, clearing the haze out.

people come and go. some stay, and most don’t. some just standing by the sidelines. some standing so far you can’t see them, but they are looking onto you. and sometimes, i find myself pathetic for standing so far. i won’t say why.

haha.