Filed under: Rants
P.s this is a ranting post. if you don’t like rants, don’t read.
my leg is like fucking swollen! i think i stood up too much. the tattoo hasn’t even healed. i’m not supposed to move so much. but, it’s gonna go down anyway. so it doesn’t matter too much.
so tomorrow’s lunch with jul and kren. and to lend wq the camera again. and then the IT fair at expo to see the mac book pro! i really want to get it soooo sooo badly! :\ and lastly, home club. hmm, never been there before. no idea what to expect. but i know i’m gonna be soo broke. i’ve been spending rather lavishly lately.
anyhow, the previous post is only “censored” because its another one of those nightmares i had. not as bad as the one that was really, quite R21. this one is probably NC16. in the end i was just, why did she do that? kinda thing. and no it doesn’t involve anyone i know. ever. it’s just some random she that happened to decide to appear in my mind. i don’t even know why my mind can make up such dreams. like, i’ve never liked things like that. disgusting things.
play was not bad today. saw a number of people i knew. but thing is there happened to be some quarrels between certain people i know and just knew. separate ones. but still, quarrels. emotional uproars. heart ached a little bit, but i’m getting over it. so, it’s nothing.
i went to school today, i’m supposed to go to school every lesson from now on. because i’ve been over-procrastinating and at the risk of dropping out. so that’s not a good thing. have to put in effort. because this last semester, i didn’t put in effort at all. except coming for the year end examinations. i mean, i know i’m at fault for being a total nutfuck. but yes, laziness gets the better of me sometimes. or, most of the time. it is really a stepping stone to my goals, o levels are. and i have no choice. and that sucks. i wish it didn’t have to suck. but it sucks.
i discovered the nicer side of ms selena today too. she was really nice. maybe because most of the rest of the teachers somehow seem to suck. but that’s okay. suddenly i’m a bit more grateful that she’s my mentor. but still, i don’t like assumptions. and i think she’s getting out of that persona thingy. and that’s good.
i am believing that life will get better as time goes by. now i just need to pass those sup papers. and be qualified to be promoted to next year.
ms selena says that i don’t make sense. thing is, i don’t make sense quarter the time. because everything is just contradictory. and i can’t give you a direct answer, ever. like, unless i’m darn clear about it.
so yeah, i’m tired and should go to sleep because i have to wake up in three or four hours. -_-” and i love qi because she’s the best and she doesn’t complain that i am still underage and that i suck for constantly borrowing her ezlink. i love qi, really. no matter how weird she is to other people. or whatever. or psychotic or whatever shit. i like weird and crazy people. it intrigues me.
okay, love to macbookpro too! really want want want want sooo badly!! i need clothes badly too, but not as badly as macbookpro! so, erm. yes. 
loveeeee. okay, i’m not drunk don’t worry.
sweet dreams to the lovely readers. 
