Affaire de coeur

anyway, i’m very surprised. really. it’s been long. real long. i think i’ve known you forever, yet not. so what? nothing. just waiting to see what happens next. i hope it’s good. 

today, i have a best friend. and a good friend. and i know some truths. and i am happy. i made new friends, as in not acquaintances, but friends. <br><br>if i ever leave singapore, i’ll be fucking sad. very fucking sad. if everything could stay this way forever, i’d be the happiest. thing is, there’s no such thing as forever. <br><br>how damn realistic i am. 

i’m so craving a full back. i saw a girl, i thought she looked like one of those girls who wear tanks and skinnies till she stood in front of me and i saw her tattoo. i was like, oh fuck. that’s damn fucking hot! and it was traditional japanese style too! oh my fucking goodness. i was like ranting about it to corinne afterwards. LOL. but seriously, if there were any femmes with full backs and wore singlets and had long hair, and is average or above average. i’d just totally orgasm right there. okay, that’s an exaggeration. but you get the point!  aiya, i’ll fall in love with the person and think she’s damn cool/hot/awesome blablabla. small tattoos are really nothing. i’m telling you, the big ones or those with many tattoos, they’re just the BOMBBB. oh yah, and they must be femme. if not it’s not that much a biggie.

today mr. bala was like rushing through biz. studies. for a while i couldn’t catch up. but it was okay. surprise surprise, saw M in my class! @@.. i was really surprised!

today was a long day, kinda. and tomorrow is a long day too. and everyday is a long day. i haven’t been able to get down to sitting in front of the computer and watching random animes. neither have i been able to be nonsensical with my brother and mother much. lol. can be fun lots of times.

reminds me, i haven’t been emo for quite a while. today i was a bit. but it was fine. at this point of my life, i think i’ve grown. i’m still that multi-persona person even though i don’t show it. because it only happens when i’m alone or something. whatever. but okay, i need sleep. tomorrow can see cheryl do her tattoo!! will be so damn awesome! bringing camera along.

this is what happens when you really have nothing to do at work.

*some words have been censored due to personal reasons.
and, my new buy. <3

p/s; really love my leica.

i swear that was one of the fucking best dreams i’ve had in a long, long time! sooo damn awesome! love her tons. very funny too.

hahaha, and yesterday was one of the better clubbing nights i’ve had in a while!

alright i seriously have to get my butt off the chair and get ready to go out if not i’ll really get another i/c for nothing. mafan. this is what happens when you recover your i/c just before the dateline.

The ‘birthday celebration’ was not bad at all. Several dramas as usual, but at least not as bad as previous times. Was pretty gone by the 2nd hour. Was quite awesome though, the feeling of having financial freedom. I was pretty overwhelmed. It was awesome that people came. And I’m very happy. So, thanks everyone who came to PLAY just to wish me well and congratulat me for my birthday. Also, for the drinks treated and all the good things that happened. Thank you.

Now I’m so absolutely excited to get my Leica D-lux 3 and photoshop because the creative juices haven’t been at work ever since photoshop expired. Lol. Haha, my brother is so excited to get his iPOD touch! We’re so happy the size increased to 32gigs. Why we’re so happy is because our earphones for our cells died so we’ve been lifeless without music.  Thank God for laptops and the music inside it.

Today at work, the security guard asked for my number and some random indian men cheated me into giving him my number. My mum says I’m still naive. I’ll learn not to give out personal information to suspicious human beings next time. I’m just not good at giving excuses. My line of work don’t really require me to interact with men but it’s amazing how these idiots manage to talk to me. Because I gave them the excuse to do so. By, needing to eat and needed someone to take care of the booth for a few minutes. And also by having the urgency to use the loo. AND, having to be the one to serve them because there just isn’t anyone else.

Right, so. work was pretty okay. Just that I forgot to bring the plug for my laptop and ended up having to save as much battery as possible so it can last the rest of the boring hours I have to work. Was asked to go Zouk after that but have to wake early tomorrow and I am here blogging so I shall go and sleep right after I blog this.

I’m kinda loving my life now. Everything seems fine. Except that my math still suck and I need to decide on my future. See, management is a strength, along with the visions blah blah, but stuff related to Art provide long lasting satisfaction. Whichever it is, I’ll have to choose. Soon. I have a feeling I’ll choose what I’m good at. Because then, I’ll be able to earn enough keep to travel the world and enjoy tons.

In the end, it’s all about learning and growing. Experiencing everything thoroughly. That, equals to happiness. Probably, in the end I’ll find someone I can share all these with. And we’ll both live happily ever after.

For now, temporary happiness. Live in the present. Making people happy is what I love.

I think the 18th post deserves a follow-up on how I’ve been doing.

School’s been quite okay. I’ve been doing my homework and handing them up, pretty much on time. Also, have been rather content with the way everythings going. I started work at Cathay, on a part-time basis. It’s quite a flexible job. Today was the second day, even though I was there mainly to accompany Corinne and learn how to open/close the store.

I have been pretty excited about my upcoming ‘clubbing’ celebration on Thursday, which is also the first day of Chinese New Year since so many people will turn up, and there is no excuse to skip because Friday is a public holiday! Hahaa

Trying to tickle my brother and him trying to tickle me back, while wrestling on my mum’s bed is tiring. I feel that it’s a good way to lose weight and actually tone your muscles up. :p

Tomorrow is shopping day, and tattoo day! For the Thursday celebration~ And after that, it’s mainly the stability part till the end of the year. Literature has been awesome, and Art classes has been too! I really enjoy Lit. Art, well.. some parts can still be frustrating. But Literature has been great so far. Other than that, the rest of the subjects are pretty much to be expected.

I miss making a friend all over again. I don’t know why. I miss talking and knowing someone, for real. I’m happy it’s happening again. I’m happy things are coming back also.

My birthday wish, for all the good things in life to happen and the bad things to make the good things feel even better! Like said, this is the year of change! I realise though, that it is change that make stability feel good. I’ll make 2008 a good one!

Keep the good ones, and away with those that don’t give a shit. Only improvements allowed.

Good night!

Apparently, I am finally eighteen.
Hooray for me.
Happy times always end with downers.
Who can help it?